Why am I here?
Is there a purpose to life? I used to think that I am here for something and finding that out was my journey. This thought started off when I observed the differences between people and thought to myself – Why does one person have two healthy feet while one is lame? Why does one person travel in a car while the other sits by the roadside and begs? Why are we all different?
Since it was impossible to discover this, I thought of finding out why I was the way I was. My mother is religious and my dad is spiritual. My Dad never objected to anyone going to a temple though he did ask why one “had” to go. His rules for living were (1) do not hurt anyone intentionally (2) do good to others if you can and are able (3) do what your heart tells you to do (4) take responsibility for all your actions and the results of those actions.
Come to think of it, I did not find understanding until a few years back. I spent a lot of my childhood with my grandmother and the maternal family in general and the answer to any question that I had was the same – it was “God”. But I could not accept that God would make a person unhappy or punish a person for doing something wrong. I was told that God is everything and in all of us. So I questioned why I was being reprimanded for something I did ‘wrong’ according to the elders if it was in fact God that was doing this. If God is in me and in everyone, how can something someone does be wrong? Well, my grandmother thought that I was weird. So you see, my search for the answers and to know the purpose of life started early.
Later on, a thought crossed my constantly day dreaming mind! Since we always consider anything that we do as a means to an end or as the process to achieve something, that is why I wanted to know the purpose – the end – the destination. That was about the time I started reading and meeting people who were talking about concepts such as ‘living in the moment’, ‘enjoy the journey’ etc. I noticed – that my thought process would draw me to people or books that were related to the thoughts of that time. Is that what manifestation looks like?
During a period in my journey, I was introduced to the concept of nirvana and related to that was the concept of re-birth or reincarnation. I was told about the journey of the soul. That made sense to me at the time and answered my question about why we are all different and that some people seem to be happier than others. Then, for a while, I got hooked on the concept of nirvana – the idea that the purpose of life here is go back to the bliss where one comes from. The idea also tied in with karma, reincarnation, keeping accounts of the deeds done over several rebirths etc. This was also the time that I got back in touch with meditation. I had felt from childhood that what I needed to do was to meditate. And then it was always frustrating that I was not practicing. Anyway, I finally got into meditating regularly early in 2010.
This was the period that I was introduced to what is generally called ‘new age spiritualism’. I was going berserk looking for the purpose as more and more angles or lets us call it “dimensions” started to appear. The galactic federation, plaeidians, syrians (not from the Country by that name but from the star sirus) , rainbow children, Enki, Enlil, Nibiru, etc were everyday terms at that time. This went on for many years. I began to meet many people around the globe who thought along the same lines. Many of these people had all these thoughts in their head and no one to talk to. They too had never read or seen videos and still they believed. I found this interesting and somehow it gave my beliefs a greater level of legitimacy.
The more I researched into Atlantis, the pyramids, ancient cultures of the Incas and the Mayans; and added to that was my prevailing belief in life outside of the Earth, the more I discovered that these ideas were hugely complex and truly mind-boggling. So much so that at one point I said to myself that I need to accept that there is no way I will get to the bottom of all this and that I need to simplify my existence to what the human brain can fathom. I decided that indeed there is a great design and probably a designer in action but that I need to dig deeper into myself and not look externally to fully understand the mysteries of life on this planet.
Ravisankar Nadiyam
Having started the search to find answers from a very early age, Ravisankar – Ravi to friends – now says “I don’t want to know all the answers as I am the answer and the questioner”. His self-exploratory journey inwards was helped by his travels to over 40 Countries. With a keen eye for photography, this ex-sales manager for a successful American company loves writing and feels like his connects with his readers, as he loves meeting people. His blog is where he has just started putting out his views to the world. Ways to connect with Ravi
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